Too Much Love Will Kill You Any Time

Too Much Love Will Kill You Any Time

Too Much Live Will Kill You Anytime

Very long time ago, i had a special love. The love that deliver a delightly and passionately feelings. She is charming,smart,humble,and extremely independent. One of best that i ever seen. Day by day, my life was filled by rainbow. No matter a mark that i had,time and money that i was spend out, more important to stay 2gether. What a pure one hundred percent love..I feel completed.
At first,everything is perfect and become steady. Except, a mark and religion-one thing that i affraid most. How can be, every single person in earth has separated,even worse contradicted, by a religion-something that supposed to be an individual jurisdiction? Not a couple,group,or partij.
But,common and paternality can't break off...As i affraid of, it's doesn't work,had to be stopped. Final decission has made. It's a rejection...After a shocky statement, suddenly, my "heart" stop beating. even my brain still function. Anger,frustation,suspicious,had mixed. That sterrible day to be memorized as a doomsday that i had killed..
After that shocky event, i turn into another person. A man who completely different than before one. Anger and frustation had driven me crazy into an ambitious study. Dy by day,week to year...
At December 19, 2004,finally ia clinched my bachelor degree. Mark as magna cumlaude,best from others. It was my first speech in front of people..Nerveous,excited,and happiness had mixed. What a tremendous feeling that i never imagine since my GPA is only 1,8 (nasakom) at my first year attendance !...
Yeah,love can will kill u everytime. Which is turn u into possitiv or negatively.
At present, even i had success to reach my dream at bachelor, but it left an empty seat..Emptyness,lonely,and neglected. Be paranoid,still affraid, to looking a new one..A pure love that will make my life finally become completed. Just sitting around and hoping...(Sebuah Memoar, Mengenang Matinya Hati pada Juli 2002)